gold&mud.

sometimes you put your trust in this person and believe in him only to realise that everything might be a lie. I’m disappointed, ultra cause it seems like all these while you are a stranger to me.

I am in no right to comment about any shit but it makes me lose the trust for you already. How do i go on treating you as my friend when all you do is hide your dirty acts and lie through your teeth. I will be happy if you can do it openly and just tell me. Must you put me though this shit, must you do this to your friend even. Who are we?

I am slowly moving away, I’m sorry we might not be able to be friends anymore I can’t do this any longer, i can’t pretend that we are good like that cause I don’t knw who are you anymore. What the fuck is in your mind and who am I to you. You will be the first I will tell if I have someone new. I think you will be happy for me and if the same happen to you ill be happy too. But you can’t do the same for me.

Everything is meaningless right now, what we had, what you say, the friendship, the trust. I hope that you are happy, really hope so. All the best to you.

my heart die tonight. once and for all. thank God

I wanted to ask what does all that means, but it prolly means nothing to you. I feel like i’m in heaven for 12 hours and I dropped back to hell after. So many question I have in my head but I know once I blurt one out, it will ruin this whole thing we have/had.

I am doing well, I am glad I din’t drown myself in misery, I am glad I deleted all the text so I wont read and cry over it again.

Well sometimes my heart still ache, I still have the urge to see him, but I am keeping it at the bottom, deep in so it don’t surface.

God is fair, something is taken away, he will replace it with something else.

I am thinking about my fallen mirror.

Was dreaming about some happy things, I am prolly smiling in my sleep, den BAM the mirror drop. It’s like God is telling me “Your dreams are dashed!”

Okay, it’s just a broken mirror. I shall not be superstitious.